PAID VAY K SHUN:

this marks my last post on xanga 'til dec.1st,12

0% credit is infinitly apropriate

it's been real...

wm

ps: DON'T QUIT YOUR JOB! ...4 obvious reasons:

#1.) total economic calapse.

#2.) death.

#3.) enough said.

#4.) repeat steps 1-3.

this medical study is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time, i'm sooooooo grateful

i'm getting so many things done/improved/organized

clearing my head

not having to work

and geting paid for it

LOVE

paranoid steroids

seems like the more organized i make myself, and more comfortable i feel, the more i wait for things to go wrong.

the more i feel as if everyone secretly hates me.

i've done and said alot of dumb/ignorant/prideful/etc things in my life, however i really am doing alot better... yet at times it seems like there's a big-screen hd tv above my head playing all of my mistakes on repeat as i walk thru this world, dragging an eternal fore-front memory of my wrongs no matter how "right" i feel i'm becoming.

naked.

alone.

sinfuly evil.

is any good deed void of all self-ritousness?

if not, what percentage qualifies?

and after all this, i bleed thoughts of, "3rd world countries" - "torcher" - "blind children" and "parapalegics"

...

almost makes me wish i never bothered dwelling on such trivial american emotions--or lack of.

without comparisons such as these, we'd all be deserving of self sorrow.

is anyone deserving? i guess techniquly, only one would be... what a petty prize to obtain.

...i guess im just self aware.

maybe even tupperware.

gotta stay fresh.

so chill out.

peace.

$5,000.00

well,

starting monday, Jan. 26th i will be participating in a new antibiotic injection medical study, and will be quarantined until feb. 22cd...

this injection has never been tested on humans before, however, upon the completion of this study i will be recieving $3,000.00 and another $2,000.00 after i complete the follow-up visits

my car just blew-up, so this will be a much needed financial increase which will get me a new car and will finally allow me to be DEBT-FREE! HURRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there's like 111 injections, so maybe afterwards ill head over to the heroin clinic, show them my arms, and get some free oxicodon to sell on the streets!... just kiding mom.

wish me luck/hope er-body

peace...

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